Sunday, October 31, 2010

...So are the days of our lives.

Like Sand in an are the Days of Our Lives.

This is an attempt to capture the slippery sand running through my fingers every second of every minute of everyday of my life. At this second I'm sitting in my living room waiting for another day to begin. I'm the only one awake and the only one enjoying the beautiful sunrise. Good thing I didn't sleep through that one! Orange skies, perfect for Halloween. Happy Halloween!

As an introduction, my name is Cody Sanders. I feel lucky that I married a man with a decent last name. There are not many last names that go well with Cody. I married my man 18 1/2 years ago, when I was not yet 18 years old myself. In fact in order for him to be able to marry me, we had to go to the courthouse with my parents so that they could sign over custody of me to him. It's a miracle that we have come through so successfully so far, considering. I tried to grow up fast, always anxious for my grown up dream world to become a reality. Now I'm smack dab in the heart of it, and I still feel like I'm trying to grow up. I always feel just a bit behind the know of my contemporaries.

My poor kids, they have had to have a mom that needs to grow up with them, but it's been fun! I'm the mom that really does like the music they listen to, has the clothes that they want to borrow and can still remember what it feels like to be their age. My kids are my best friends. My oldest, my son, is 18, and thank goodness, isn't as anxious as I was to grow up. My youngest, my daughter, is 15, almost sweet 16. Just thinking of their ages just kills me. Their lives as my "little chillins" is swiftly slipping right through my tightly fisted grip.

So, I decided that enough is enough, I love life! If I can't hold on to every precious second in my hands I can at least document the precious parts that make me who I am.

So, get to know me, I'm pretty fun!